Birthdays.

so I've found out today, that birthdays aren't all they are cracked up to be.

yesterday just happened to be mine.

when you're young, the suspense of a birthday is almost unbearable.
you cant wait to get to that day for the whole year, telling your mom maybe a thousand and two times what you are expecting to get that year, asking her for the moon and everything in between. requesting that you are served breakfast in bed like the Queen of Sheba, and for your mom to bake you the hardest cake receipt that you can think of....
                                                 .....of course... i didn't think this way... ;)
but anyway...

now that i am older, birthdays just aren't the same. i feel like nobody should make a big deal out of my birthday, I'm only turning 19...
if you think about it, saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY!, you are really just saying " hey you were born today 19 years ago, congrats on your mom birthing you..." you should really be thanking the mother and father that had that person who's birthday is today.

also, opening gifts in front of people.... it makes me uncomfortable.
now I'm not saying don't give me presents! by allllll means, do!
but i just don't like opening them in front of people.
i feel like i should be getting them something too.

presents....
having a job and having money to burn kinda ruins the whole... wanting something and not being able to have it concept.
its hard for my mom to find me something to get when i can do just that.
so then i get frustrated when i cant tell her what i want and she doesn't know what to get me either.
makes for a stressful conversation...I'm sure you understand.

but no worries my birthday was still a good one, just a little different than when i was young :)


                                    .................just food for thought..............

before i croak...

so on my sisters blog she has listed a bunch of stuff she wants to do before she dies... this got me thinking of stuff i wanna do, have, or be before i get old and die.... are you ready for this EPIC list? OK.. ready go!

sappy stuff :

~kiss the love of my life in the rain (idk... its just... romantic)
~be driving along with my "boy" and he all of a sudden stops the car, tells me to get out and (while it has just rained of course) he turns up the radio and we just slow dance in the middle of a parking lot or somewhere random and cute.
~my room is at the front of my house with windows and everything... so think of that while i tell you another sappy dream of mine...right before i go to bed my"boy" would knock on my window just to say hello
~have a honeymoon in Alaska

not so sappy:

~have a big house with a red front door.
~go to Italy
~swim with dolphins
~become a famous artist
~become a pho~toe~grapher....thats just how i pronounce it...
~be a mommy
~have my own little salon in my house
~have more than one pet
~live on the beach                {these         might       work
~live on a grassy hill side               two            not          together}
~have a little cottage home that is like 100 years old
                  ~it will have vines growing up the side of the walls
~have a husband that is OK with all of my crazy dreams
~ride a horse
~swim in all 7 oceans
~go to a different continent
~rent a hot air balloon
~learn to surf
~learn to long board better...
~have a paisley room... full of paisley of course...
~maybe name a dog paisley if not a room full of it
~go snorkeling

if all of these things don't happen....... not to be punny...but i think i will live.
but if some of these things do happen.... i won't complain :D
                               .............just food for thought...........

...FHE...

so FHE which means family home evening if you didnt already know, is ...different when its not with "the family".
 the singles ward "family" "home" evenings is not exactly what the title means....
     First of all... in the singles ward "FHE"'s...  none of your own family is actually there unless you wanna get technical and call everyone your "brothas and sistas"
     Second of all... you arent home. its most likely in a church buliding... which i guess you could say it was your home since it is jesus' home and he is our "Brother"...... soooo.... just dont get technical if you wanna understand my thinking....
     AND Thrid of all!... ok... it IS in the evening, I'll give them that one.
At YSA FHE we do tend to flirt with each other and if we do call it FAMILY home evening.... welll... then.... its kinda gross if you are flirtin it up with your brother now isnt it?
i had a REALLY good time at fhe tonight, dont worry, not tryin to bash on fhe : D
                                 
                               JUST FOOD FOR THOUGHT    :)

first post.
i am now offically a "blogger".
i will probably spend more time trying to think of something to write about than actually writing.
but dont worry, ill still be enjoyable to follow... i think.. : D
    today is my day off. the only reason i know this is because of the fatty calendar that i have created on my full length mirror in my room. that calendar has saved me. i am not one to remember things by just hearing them once and then storing them in my little noggin. i even have different colors for different things going on.

blue:work schedule
green: things i actually want to do with my life
red: days i have off of work
brown: the time i am squeezing in some type of exercise

i never realized how much stuff i have to do in a week till i wrote it down.
try it. it might surprise you.
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